Sorry….

I haven’t written for such a long time….all summer…

Can’t believe summer is almost over already, the days are getting longer and the weather colder…and here we are….going through the biggest changes any of us has ever felt or lived, trying to adapt, living in fear, looking suspisciously at our friends and family, going on with lives that are far from normal and believing or wanting to believe that everything is going to be alright….it’s not….will not!

Meanwhile we put on our masks and wash our hands as if that could save us from dying as if that would be normal as if that would allow us to keep on living our lives as before….

Sorry…can’t look at this situation and say we will learn from it as human beings …say that we will get stronger…I can only feel this is just the beginning and once the economy will go down the gutter and as soon as people won’t be able to put food on the table….then is when things will get even uglier.

I wish I could talk about when this situation passes…when everything will be back to normal….but I can’t cause I am not sure if that will ever happen…

Sorry….

Empress of all seasons

It’s an interesting book. Maybe because the background is different, maybe because it’s based on Japanese mythology and that paints everything with a new color.

It’s a love story like so many others, hearts divided and broken upon duty and love entwined with beasts and curses and claws and black leathery wings.

An emperor and his empress and secrets kept deep inside vast seasonal rooms full of magic and death. Can love conquer all?

It was a good break from the traditional kind of fantasy books I usually read.

the starless sea

I dont even know where to start…I’ve just finished reading this book…this crazy, amazing, different book. Let’s see if I can organize my thoughts…this book is like no other, it is a book about books, about stories and tales and unbelievable and nonexistent things and places. I love reading and if I lived alone I would have a reading corner in every room in my house…I do have a few though…this book describes a place like the best reading corner…like everything in that place is there for you to sit down comfortably and just read.

The plot is rich and complicated and impossible…it’s intricated and twisted but at the same time it’s magical and wonderful and cozy. I love the fact that it doesn’t follow a timeline…one moment you are reading about Zac (the main character) and the next chapter is a tale that seems it has nothing to do with the story…ohhh but it does…everything has it’s place and time in this book you just have to be patient enough to find out.

I love the references to other books, to videogames…to stories in general. Daily life and things as food or clothing are just there…easy to get….at your fingertips just like when you are lucky enough to spend a day reading and you just sit on your favorite spot in your pijamas and you just eat take away or junk food….because the really important thing is to read!

There are so many things I love about this book but mainly I love the way it loves and values stories…the unique way it drags you out of the convencional to submerge you into a sea of honey or magic doors and lost keys…

There’s a warning though…..it’s not a book for everybody!

nuances and relationships

ok so…last week I finished this book called “The ninth house” by Leigh Bardugo and my experience was not good. From the beginning the book was slow-paced, full of confusing names, streets, buildings, dates, characters from the past and present, some meaningful for the story others not so much. Sometimes it seemed I was reading a history book, and I do hate those!

I didn’t stop reading because I like this author specially her previous saga of the Ghrisha and because I don’t like giving up on books but….and that is a big BUT, it was dificult to go on…

I must say though that it gets better towards the end, the author manages to make the story go faster, the characters finally seem to make sense and it’s like watching a dough becoming a cake.

It’s sort of strange the way reading a book can become an experience with so many nuances of feeling…almost as a relationship.

never flinch, never fear…and never,ever forget

i feel sad. i’ve just finished reading the nevernight trilogy and i feel empty as when you have to say goodbye at an airport and you know deep inside you will never see that friend or lover again….a feeling of longing… of emptiness…that’s how a good book makes me feel when i finish it….i miss it already….it’s like nothing will ever fill that hole again…nothing is gonna be good enough to fill that void…

“i shall miss it when it’s gone.

but to live in the hearts of those we leave behind is to never die. and to burn in the memories of our friends is to never say goodbye….”

too much…too many world

Brooklyn Bridge, New York City. Photos via Getty Images

too many words…feelings…thoughts on social networking….

too much silence on the streets….

too much suffering….

too many laughs….

too many graves….

too much nonsense

too many politicians…

too much pain….

too many ideas….

too much information….

not enough solutions

not enough support

not enough ….

we’ll see…

I’ve realized that lately we use this sentence a lot…we’ll see….

Ir reflects the moment of incertainty we are all living…. starting with our own lives…

we’ll see if we get through this alive…

we’ll see if we receive our salary at the end of the month…

we’ll see if nobody in our family gets infected…

we’ll see how it’s going to be like to go back to “normality”…

we’ll see if the governments can juggle well enough between saving people and saving the economy…

we’ll see if we can recover from all this death and grief….

we’ll see….

masks and gloves

I suppose everybody who has been through a war, a plague or an extreme situation has had the same feeling as I do right now…I look out of my window to an empty world and I just can’t believe I’m living this surreal situation. It’s like a movie…It feels like a movie…sounds like a movie…but it’s my life I’m living…nobody else’s.

The streets are empty. There’s no traffic, no people….only silence….suddenly…in a couple of days our entire life has changed…has been altered…is controlled….is submersed in a deep distrust.

a fortnight of silence has started…of distance…of fear…of masks and gloves and appreenshion….and screens…

loads of screens and laughs

and screams and death….

I should have read that book tag

As seen on Dragons&zombies

THE RULES-

THE QUESTIONS-

A BOOK THAT A CERTAIN FRIEND IS ALWAYS TELLING YOU TO READ

And finally I started reading it….and I just can’t stop!

A BOOK THAT’S BEEN ON YOUR TBR FOREVER AND YET YOU STILL HAVEN’T PICKED IT UP

Not exactly forever but I’ve had it for a couple of months and I think it’s gonna be there for a long time….not my kind of book!

A BOOK IN A SERIES YOU’VE STARTED, BUT HAVEN’T GOTTEN AROUND TO FINISHING YET

I started this one last month but I haven’t been able to finish it….and I would like to but as much as I like the netflix series or the videogames the books are not gripping….not sure why…

A CLASSIC YOU’VE ALWAYS LIKED THE SOUND OF, BUT NEVER ACTUALLY READ

Maybe this year….

A POPULAR BOOK THAT SEEMS EVERYONE BUT YOU HAS READ

I haven’t read it!!! I know….everyone else has….shame on me!!

A BOOK THAT INSPIRED A FILM/TV ADAPTATION THAT YOU REALLY LOVE, BUT YOU JUST HAVEN’T READ YET

Netflix has a series based on these books called “ANNE WITH an E” and I really loved it! the way the main character speaks, the way she uses words to express feelings just blows my mind!!! so I want to read the books!

A BOOK YOU SEE ALL OVER INSTAGRAM BUT HAVEN’T PICKED UP

No idea about this one but it’s all over the place….

definitely too old!!

It seems like lately we quantify everything in our world. The number of friends we have are counted on social media, the number of hours we sleep is measured through our smart watches, the amount of likes make us more famous and we use an app to count the number of books we read. Now that is something I don’t understand maybe because reading for me has always been a pleasure. I stuck my head into a different world and live the lives of the different characters everytime I start a new book and I enjoy with it ….every step of the way…so…what’s the rush? Maybe I’m too old to understand but reading challenges seem all wrong to me…adding stress to such a beautiful part of my life is something I don’t need….but then again….maybe this is something new that I’m too old to understand….